Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Praying Woman

I am a praying woman – 63 yrs. old – and my answer to everything I’ve faced is to start with prayer – and to use prayer to bring peace in the midst of terrible storms.

In my life I have faced three C-sections – Kik was my one normal delivery – our last baby was in ICU for the first three days of her life – my daughters have had broken bones – sat on broken Coke bottles – had enlarged livers with all the tests involved in that – gotten severely stung by a Portuguese Man O’ War jellyfish – we have moved 18 times – lost everything and started over several times – I have had emergency gall bladder surgery and was in the hospital for 10 days – had my shin bone biopsied for bone cancer and that was six weeks of living with the fact that I might have bone cancer and I didn’t – four daughters sick with the chicken pox without a lot of money to buy medicine – going through the teenage years with four daughters – husband sometimes unemployed – husband who smoked Pall Malls and had emphysema and had to have carotid artery surgery and quad bypass and I was with him for 12 days in the hospital in Charleston and brought him home safely from there – came home at lunch time on the 22nd day and found him – he had died during the morning after we had talked on the phone and fortunately ended the conversation laughing and saying I love you to each other.

There is more, of course – but I sit here in what I consider my perfect for me townhouse and I look back at everything and know that there is no way I could have survived without God in my life and I don’t mean the God that some people think of as the go to church on Sunday, white gloves, carrying your Bible, smile plastered on your face phoniness – but – the God who says to me –

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.
Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30

Several times in my life I have gone for counseling and one time the counselor said to me that God wasn’t someone with a big yellow legal pad checking things off for and against Claire – but – God was someone who was holding out His hand to me wanting a relationship with me – and when I read my Bible – especially the New Testament – and pray – I can feel His arms opening wide to me as I run to Him and His peace in the midst of terrible storms of loneliness, death, anger, terror, illness and frustration begins to come over me and permeate me and I would make it through another day.

So I encourage you – as you face the “dailyness” of your life with all the problems and decisions you will be going through to pick up a Bible (like The Living Bible version) – turn to the New Testament and just try reading Matthew, Mark, Luke or John – and pray and ask God to show you what He has for you – I can’t explain maybe logically or theologically how it works – but I can stand and look you in the eye and tell you that He is there and He is ready to meet you.


Anonymous said...

You have taught us so well that it is my (almost) immediate reaction and response to anyone or any thing that I don't know how to figure out. I love to know that you are praying for me...I am so thankful for prayer.

Chief Rock Chef said...

That was great and I agree with everything you say. I never knew how much faith I had until we lost our daughter. God has helped me a lot since then. I know he has heard me a few times - like the time one thing too many landed on my head and I asked him to "give me a break"! He did.

Thanks for sharing some of the hardships that you have been through. It means so much more when someone like you says that faith has helped them, rather than someone who doesn't really know what true hardship is.

Thanks Claire.


Claire said...

Heather - Thanks - you always bless me with your readiness to pray.

Rock Chef - Your words really are like hugs - and I appreciate how "real" you are about your life.

Teresa said...

You always bless me Claire. You're an amazing example to me and I have always prayed for someone special in my life as a mentor and an example. God answered my prayer in YOU.

Thanks for sharing that verse...I read it today like it was for the first time and it spoke to me like never before! I love that about the "living Word"!!

Sheri said...

Thank you Claire. Thank you.....